Sup guys!? It's been quite a while since you've last seen me probably X_D
Quite a bit has happened to me this semester. Mostly it revolves around a girl. If you remember, last time I had posted about a girl I liked last semester. She had told me she had a fiance at the end of the semester and said we couldn't be friends anymore. After two days of depression I got over it and moved on. At the start of this semester, the same girl comes back and tells me that she was sorry for what she did to me last semester, and that instead she just wanted to stay friends if it was ok with me. I accepted, since it's what I wanted at the end of last semester, and from then on we were back to being good friends.
Mid way through the semester, when a few new friends I made asked why exactly she had rejected me, I told them it was cause she had a fiance and she responded that her engagement might actually get called off, no promises but it could. This gave me hope that I could have a chance with her again. Unfortunately that did not happen and 2-3 weeks later she went out with my best friend. She told him in private when the engagement got broken off and eventually a week after that, they went out. Although I did notice she treated him differently from me, she had always re-assured me that she just thought of us all as friends. Because of this situation, it caused me to fall back into the state of depression I was in last semester. I had about 3 talks with the both of them about how I feel and my situation.
The way the situation is now, I am still the guys best friend, it doesn't change the way I feel about him although I'm pretty upset about him doing that behind my back, since last semester he was the one supporting me when I was trying to go out with her. As for the girl I like, although she said she considers me one of her best friends and has tried on occasion to make me feel better, I still feel like she just doesn't treat me as well as she does everyone else. I tried to avoid her because I didn't know how to react to her anymore, but she just got upset and said she didn't want me to do that and wanted to at least be close. But it just doesn't feel like that anymore. She barely talks to me, just once in a while she says hi to me, maybe makes a little joke here and there and does some small talk. But to my best friend and everyone else she goes into long drawn conversations with them. The situation doesn't bother me much anymore because on one particular day when she was upset, she dragged me and my best friend out to explain something that happened to her. We were there to comfort her and when we walked her to her class, they both started making out in front of me. I felt upset over that cause of the fact that they both know exactly how I feel about her and did that anyway.
After that I kinda just stopped caring as much. It still bothers me but, the best way to put it is that I don't feel like I got a cloud over my shoulder. I do wish that she would treat me like she treats everyone else, but since I don't really know what to do, I'm just living my life normally.
Welp, thats what's been going on recently. It doesn't seem like much has changed over here, it's cool to see ya guys again and hopefully I can be active for MORE than just a few weeks/months
:onegai:
Quite a bit has happened to me this semester. Mostly it revolves around a girl. If you remember, last time I had posted about a girl I liked last semester. She had told me she had a fiance at the end of the semester and said we couldn't be friends anymore. After two days of depression I got over it and moved on. At the start of this semester, the same girl comes back and tells me that she was sorry for what she did to me last semester, and that instead she just wanted to stay friends if it was ok with me. I accepted, since it's what I wanted at the end of last semester, and from then on we were back to being good friends.
Mid way through the semester, when a few new friends I made asked why exactly she had rejected me, I told them it was cause she had a fiance and she responded that her engagement might actually get called off, no promises but it could. This gave me hope that I could have a chance with her again. Unfortunately that did not happen and 2-3 weeks later she went out with my best friend. She told him in private when the engagement got broken off and eventually a week after that, they went out. Although I did notice she treated him differently from me, she had always re-assured me that she just thought of us all as friends. Because of this situation, it caused me to fall back into the state of depression I was in last semester. I had about 3 talks with the both of them about how I feel and my situation.
The way the situation is now, I am still the guys best friend, it doesn't change the way I feel about him although I'm pretty upset about him doing that behind my back, since last semester he was the one supporting me when I was trying to go out with her. As for the girl I like, although she said she considers me one of her best friends and has tried on occasion to make me feel better, I still feel like she just doesn't treat me as well as she does everyone else. I tried to avoid her because I didn't know how to react to her anymore, but she just got upset and said she didn't want me to do that and wanted to at least be close. But it just doesn't feel like that anymore. She barely talks to me, just once in a while she says hi to me, maybe makes a little joke here and there and does some small talk. But to my best friend and everyone else she goes into long drawn conversations with them. The situation doesn't bother me much anymore because on one particular day when she was upset, she dragged me and my best friend out to explain something that happened to her. We were there to comfort her and when we walked her to her class, they both started making out in front of me. I felt upset over that cause of the fact that they both know exactly how I feel about her and did that anyway.
After that I kinda just stopped caring as much. It still bothers me but, the best way to put it is that I don't feel like I got a cloud over my shoulder. I do wish that she would treat me like she treats everyone else, but since I don't really know what to do, I'm just living my life normally.
Welp, thats what's been going on recently. It doesn't seem like much has changed over here, it's cool to see ya guys again and hopefully I can be active for MORE than just a few weeks/months
:onegai: